only time heals

imagine living in a world full of hatred. a world where you'd always feel you don't belong. the place where you thought you could seek for support is actually the place full of illusions. how would you feel? sorrow. helpless.speechless.rage. what if the people around you are plain hypocrites. sometimes they're your pillar of strength and sometimes they're the ones that pull you down?

i've always been hiding my feelings in front of them. in a way i would always show my strength . they'd never knew the weakness that fills me evrytime they bring me down. harsh words. rough actions. is it my fault to be here on earth. was it my fault to be part of their life. i would always tell myself to stay strong. i knew this things won't be long. i've never knew she would speak out that pricking remarks to me. i've always been there for her. i've always by her side whenever she needs it.

he is another person that's part of my life. seeing him change in front of me. if only i could have recorded since the day we knew each other till the day he's old enough to talk harshly to me. i knew deep down inside him there's this loving guy . why do you have to do this to me? i don't mind if he hates me. but for once i knew, i'll never get a replacement for you.

i would always love them even if i have to swallow these sorrows alone.
i just hope they'll be much understanding and see the real me.
i'm not as tough as you think i am.